معنی کلمه the vicarious experiences

I spent years as a care giver for a relative and I’d my own medical conditions. I’d go to work, and that would pretty much drain me, and I wasn’t able to do many of the things I used to do, and I’d feel guilty doing many things strictly for myself that took time and money away from the family.

معنی این عبارت "تجربیات نیابتی" و یا "تجربه های جانشین" است